it's too late baby

So I’m thinking about pulling an all-nighter. I just spent all this wasted time on facebook, myspace and well, blackboard. Now it’s almost 2 in the a.m. and I’m not going to sleep now. I made myself miss hanging out in dear old Ukiah by looking at a bunch of Ukiah high student’s myspace pages. That wasn’t so smart because now I’m thinking and wishing about my old friends in Ukiah. I am excited about getting to hang out there for the month of May. Hopefully I’ll get to see Timmy and the crew a lot more than expected. I hope that everything goes well with that.
I’m really missing Aymeric a lot. Today and yesterday were really hard for me because I woke up reaching out for him. I dream of him so often. So tonight I decided to download skype in the computer lab and add him. I’ve been on the computer for almost 2 hours now and I’m starting to feel discouraged.
Alena and I watched pride and prejudice tonight and I couldn’t help but kick myself for not saying yes to Aymeric’s proposal. I know that it’s not physically possible but I still find myself imagining that he would have stayed if I had said yes. If I could only hold him in my arms once more. I really hope that my mom puts enough money in my account for me to send that package. I’ll have to buy some scotch to tape it up.
Wow I’m getting pretty sleepy now. Should I just go to bed? I don’t want to wake up alone again. I should really just try to pull an all-nighter though. Just for the fun of it. I can do laundry and read. Which will most likely put me to sleep. I’m starting to get really hungry though, and that will give me a headache. I should just stay here at this computer until Aymeric signs on. Even if it takes hours, days, months.
Kon has been really annoying me on the phone. He told Alena not to get into the car with me when I have my mom’s car. I asked him about it and that was a mistake. I shouldn’t have because it just made me feel shitty when he accused me of being too emotional to drive. I think he could be a lot nicer than that.
I tried to work on my final project for video in final cut pro today but it didn’t go very well. I think I hate that program. It’s really difficult to use and it takes so much effort to do something that could be simply done in iMovie.
I have a quiz in my bio lab in the morning. Dun dun dun. I also have to go talk to my advisor about registering for next semester and what’s been going on this semester. I’m pretty pissed off at myself again and I really wish that I could do this entire semester over again. At least it’s getting close to the end and I won’t have to think about it anymore. Next fall I’ll be able to start again fresh.
I tried to work on my final project for video in final cut pro today but it didn’t go very well. I think I hate that program. It’s really difficult to use and it takes so much effort to do something that could be simply done in iMovie.
I have a quiz in my bio lab in the morning. Dun dun dun. I also have to go talk to my advisor about registering for next semester and what’s been going on this semester. I’m pretty pissed off at myself again and I really wish that I could do this entire semester over again. At least it’s getting close to the end and I won’t have to think about it anymore. Next fall I’ll be able to start again fresh.
Next year is going to be really strange because I won’t have Alena. I hope that it works out for the better. Maybe it will allow me to dedicate my ENTIRE LIFE to school. I really wish I had a boyfriend who had so much time to dedicate to me again. That would be a lot of fun for the summer. Wow!