He is so beautiful. Like a summer afternoon in the park with nothing to do. His smile shows everything good about the world. His hands hold my heart. I love him and that's why i want to be a better person. every day. do you think i can do it? do you think i can go the extra mile? I hope so because i know he deserves it all. he has given me the gifts i've longed for. so long. forever. that's it's become a part of me. so much that i've forgotten what i would actually do in this situation. now what? he's given me all i could ever want in a partner and all i have to do is love him back. why should that be hard to do? today he told me once we are angry our emotions aren't valid. once we are angry we aren't ourselves. he told me that he misses the beginning when i used to respect him. and i said me too because it's true. i miss that time when we used to both act more nervous about what to say to each other because our feelings couldn't handle making the other person upset. but he's so smart and cool, really, he doesn't push the limits with me. he's unreal in so many ways. i want to be the one he'll always need.
