i only continue to write here because i trust that no one is reading it. i need it to be personal and mine. today isn't any better than yesterday. i still feel lonley and sad. i still feel like i have nothing to do. i wish i had more friends here to hang out with. blaine asked me to stop by tonight but i don't know if it will be weird. last time i was there it wasn't very comfertable and i think his friends don't really like me or have any reason to. i wish i had a bike to ride around town. i really wish i had my old bike.
i had a wonderful time talking to kon on the phone last night. i hope that he comes to see me as soon as he gets back. i really miss him. i talked to alen today and she really wants me to come visit her. i think i will spend a lot of time there this summer if i can't find a job here. i went to the florist's today and they don't need anyone.
i think i should go over to kathrine and brandon's but i don't know if i should feel that welcome. we'll see.
