trust

sometimes life is just crazy. i can't relive anything. i can't even really think about it.
somehow i don't want to.
i just want to live. i just want to realize, but i think those things are stupid. i don't think they're real. i do have the ability to do whatever i want.
when you turn a corner you don't look back, you look forward. i could pretend i am still there in that hole. i can close my eyes and i'm there. and i'm not where i want to be. i'm not even home. it's comfy because i have no where else to be. and because i'm scared of what the future holds. i can't wait to be away....

now here i am. away. fine. happy. new. but still scared. just of different things than before. still of the future but somehow i don't think i have to be.
people can fall asleep every night dreaming of their fears. people can wake up again almost sure about the next night coming. knowing i will be here, again, in this same position, makes me know something.
i don't have to feel scared if i know i could be here, in this state, today, tomorrow or yesterday. nothing's changed. it's the same style.


i can't wait for the morning.